"I feel relieved and sick of food. I feel tired, crabby, and just ready to get it over with. I'm terrified of the exercise. My body already aches thinking about it. I'm scared that I'm going to get sick, be sick, or just hate the liquid diet so much. I'm sick and tired of trying to convince people that this is a good thing and that I or rather WE can do this. No one believes it. They are happy and say congrats, but I can hear it in their voices and no one truly believes you. I don't want to have to eat ever again. Sometimes I Just want to sleep for a long time. I also get depressed lately. It's really like losing a close friend. That's the emotional side taking over. It's going to be very hard. I'm not sure I'm strong enough to do this"
I can't agree more with the things Deb has said here. It seems that fear is the number one feeling I had prior to the liquid diet. I had such anxiety about it that I couldn't sleep the day before. However, we are now day 4 into this. We have exercised every night. I walked everywhere I needed to go yesterday. I felt good. Yet, I am totally starving. I have hunger pains so bad I want to vomit. On the emotional side of things, I feel like I lost a part of myself. I never truly saw how important food was to me until it was no longer with me. I'm nervous, scared, depressed, and a bit out of it. I'm burping up my vitamin right now. Flinstone vitamins don't taste so good in a burp. My head has been pounding for 4 days straight. We are only allowed Tylenol. That numbs the pain for an hour or so and it returns right back. Somedays I say I want this and I can do this. Other moments I say, "No, I'll just be the fat girl forever." I have set my final goal today. I want to lose 150 pounds.
On the good side, I am losing a pound a day on this liquid starvation diet.
