The Journey Continues

I gained 1.8 pounds.

So this week Deb got her third 5 pound sticker at Weight Watchers, while I am 1.8 pounds heavier then the day I started. Yet, my pants are being held up by my hips. Tell me why? It doesn't make sense. Why does the scale continue to lie. The day I see under 300 pounds it'll be a miracle. It shall happen, I know it.  Someday the moment of truth will happen and the scale will tell the truth.  Although, I go by 3 scales.. they are al Liars.. I tell you... Liars.

Tonight we watched the fatties on T.V. again. I call it that because it makes me feel better. I admit it, I'm shallow.  The show is great and the patients are so interesting. One woman replaced her food addiction with a purse addiction.  Intriguing.  I have yet to decide what addiction I'll take on after I give up the one to food. I know I must give up my food therapy, perhaps I'll get an addiction to exercise. It could happen..  it just could

So not much of an update in the world of Lap Band. We have 6 more weeks of this dreaded Weight Watchers, where we walk in get weighed, sign in, and say no we're not staying for your stupid hooray meeting where we can cheer about me gaining 1.8 pounds and decide as a group how come I'm not losing weight. You think it was the MnM cookie today? Perhaps it's my lack of eating, the starvation method doesn't appear to be working.  

Peace.. 

The Life Changing Journey

I figured my first blog would be to introduce myself to those who do not know me. This is a place where I can blog on the open Internet and share my story of LapBand.  I normally blog on myspace, but I wanted something separate. Something just for this journey.  I'm a 30 year old female living in Chicago with my partner. We are doing this journey together.  I will not post my weight just yet, but I know how much I need to lose.  I have started the process of insurance approval and I'm awaiting the decision.  I have also started the mental process. The process of telling my brain what I am about to do and changing my relationship with food. Food is like an addiction for me.   I think about it all the time. If I think about dieting, I imagine an ice cream sundae.  I can't say the D word in my life.  My partner is amazing. She too is 30 and has the same weight battle. Having the support system right there with me is amazing.  This week our goal is to start exercising.  It was supposed to start Jan 2, but I have been sick since Christmas Eve. and now I shared my sickness with her.  I work at a school so I'm always surrounded by germs!  Either way the journey has begun. Deb and I joined Weight Watchers in September and she's down 15 pounds and I'm down 4.  I don't follow diets well. I have tried, perhaps not well enough. OK I barley tried.  Perhaps this week I'll try harder.  

So the first post..  more to come.